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Post by Jenna on Sept 22, 2005 22:08:37 GMT -5
She sighed tried of the drama. She knew why this wasn't heathly but she also knew that is was hell to be away from him, it was a hell she had been living through, but her daughter had gotten her through it. "I can't take the drama anymore Draco. You come with so much of it. And yes I still want you, more than anything but you are too pricy. You just drive the world to hell and back." she said a little forcefully. "I can't handle that not right now." she said.
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Post by christopher on Sept 22, 2005 22:16:50 GMT -5
"I don't want to hurt you."Draco said, his heart was already broken in to a million pieces, and he hadn't thought it could break anymore, but she had proved him wrong. He didn't want drama either, but he was a DE, and he had to expect it. "I'll leave and you won't see me again."Draco promised her. "I hope you have a nice life with your daughter."he said, trying hard to be strong when these words were contradicting his emotions, but the pain was evident in his eyes. He got up to go, a strand of black hair falling in his face, but he didn't care. "Bye Li."
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Post by Jenna on Sept 22, 2005 22:23:38 GMT -5
"Wait." she said confused. She started to cry, she didn't know what she wanted. She wanted him but she didn't know if she was strong enough to handle him. She grabbed him by the hand and wanted to melt into his arms and for him to say it would be alright but she didn't know if that was possible. "Please don't go." she said softly, pleading with him. "Not now. I still love you." she said crying.
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Post by christopher on Sept 22, 2005 22:28:47 GMT -5
Draco closed his eyes. He wanted so desperlatly to kiss those tears away, and to hold her and make her worries disappear. But he couldn't. And giving her that illusion would only make things worse, it would only hurt her more. "Li, we can't...I can't..."he said, his voice softer then his mind told him to be but harsher then his heart told him to be. He couldn't give her what she wanted, and he couldn't hurt her anymore. He didn't want to.
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Post by Jenna on Sept 22, 2005 22:30:45 GMT -5
"What do you mean, you can't." she said angrily. "That is all you have ever said to me Draco, we can't I can't." she said angrily. "And look at where it has gotten us broken hearted and incomplete. If that is where you want to leave it then fine, but if you leave now, I won't be here anymore, I will move on. It doesn't mean I will be happy, but I can't wait for every, not even one more day. I hope you know that." she said.
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Post by christopher on Sept 22, 2005 22:34:22 GMT -5
Draco looked at her, broken-hearted. "You know as well as I do that I'm not dependable."he said. "I'm not strong, and I can't guarentee that... that I won't submit to fear... and I'm sorry with all my heart, I'm sorry that I can't be stronger. Because this is breaking me in two... but if for whatever reason I ended up leaving because of Him then I would never forgive myself. I don't want to put you in danger and I don't want to give you false hope, and I'm dying to leave all this but it's more complicated then that."
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Post by Jenna on Sept 22, 2005 22:36:37 GMT -5
"No it is a simple choice, either yes or no." she said. "You siad no pretty much so it is over." she said. She walked back to the table to grab her stuff. "Jei Dae, lets go honey." she said in Chinese walking out of the door. She was distgusted with herself for letting him back in for that moment. She was being torn up in the inside and she wanted to break down but she couldn't let her daughter see it.
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Post by christopher on Sept 22, 2005 22:41:37 GMT -5
Draco watched as Li Na left his life once again, and with a sudden boost from the depths of his shattered heart came a wave of determination. He was going to stop all the nonsense once and for all. He hated watching this scene and it would not happen again. He hated being a DE and he'd find a way to leave if it meant his life. He hated being so cowardly and that was going to stop too. All of this was going to stop. Now.
There was one thing that was going to start. And never stop.
Draco watched as Li Na and her daughter walked through the door and out of the building and he strided along after her. "LI NA!"he called throught the crowd. Everyone stopped in place, looking at the man who had just shouted, but he paid no mind to that, it was just Li Na right now. It always had been and he was daft for not seeing this sooner.
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Post by Jenna on Sept 22, 2005 22:43:58 GMT -5
"Walk a little faster baby." she said to her daughter as they reached the entrance of her home. She quickly went inside and shut the door, sinking down onto the floor. She smiled at her daughter who was staring at her as if she were crazy. "Go play. I will be up in a bit." she said softly smiling, tiredly.
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Post by christopher on Sept 22, 2005 22:47:36 GMT -5
Draco followed her. He didn't care what people thought of him running after her, or any of that. The door shut in front of his face and he narrowed his eyes. He probably could've just apparated in, but he wasn't going to do that immediatly. He knocked three times. Draco's eyes were locked on the door, the door that held his future behind it.
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Post by Jenna on Sept 22, 2005 22:49:21 GMT -5
She listened to hom knocking, not sure if she wanted him to come in or not. "Go away." she said to the door, closing her eyes. She wanted to shut him out now, why did he have to come back, to break her heart even more? She couldn't handle it no, she needed a break from anything hurtful he might say.
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Post by christopher on Sept 22, 2005 22:51:45 GMT -5
Draco sat so that his back was against the door, his head leaning back on it. He had a look of contemplation on his face, thinking of her and all that he was going to do to change. But it was worth it. And he would do it. "I can't."he told her.
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Post by Jenna on Sept 22, 2005 22:53:35 GMT -5
"Yes you can, you have done it many times before." she said harshly. "This time can't be so different." she said angrily. She wanted to give him and chance and yet she didn't. She was battling herself on the inside not sure what to do. She leaned her head back, taking a deep breath, as she realized he just might be staying this time.
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Post by christopher on Sept 22, 2005 22:58:34 GMT -5
"I wan't it to be different. And I'm sick of being seperated from you through this wall, because on my side there's a whole lot of crap, and I'm not going to go through with any of it anymore. I don't want to be here. And the only thing that's important to me, and that's in my life that I'm ever going to keep true to is on the other side of this door. So until you let me in I'll just sit here and wait, because I'm done with this life and I'm ready to change, but I can wait. And if I'm sitting here for the rest of my life then so be it, but I'll tell you, Li Na Shing, that waiting would be worth it because I love you."
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Post by Jenna on Sept 22, 2005 23:00:51 GMT -5
She sat there quietly not sure what to do or say. What if it was all so game? A lie. She couldn't live with that and she knew it, a person could only take so much heartbreak. She sat there silently thinking and pondering and slowly but surely the door creaked open and she saw him sitting, there just as he had promised.
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